Be you. The world will adjust.
I’ve always loved old things- old book covers, old thrift store finds, old people (LOL)….I love people who are a little corky, the underdogs, slightly left. I’m passionate about the beautiful exchange of a seemingly broken ‘thing, situation, person’ in turn for a new ‘thing, situation, person’.
For many years now, I’ve had an undeniable call, a magnetic pull of sorts— to young women, who are either trying to figure life out or women who have the tendency to feel unseen, overlooked, and unloveable. As a young girl, experiencing an array of abuse myself, well into my adulthood, I knew all too well how it felt to feel like these women. I despised bullies. In fact, I often went out of my way to step into the middle of fights that weren’t mine. I felt, in a way, that it was my duty and I was passionate about it.
I set out on a journey (and I didn’t care if it took me my entire life) to work through the after effects of physical, sexual and mental abuse and deep abandonment issues in the unhealthy form of suicide attempts, hospitalizations, violence, anxiety, depression, PTSD, and debilitating fear while almost simultaneously chasing on the heels in search of healing, forgiveness, understanding and a RELENTLESS REFUSAL to go out like that!!! I knew that I knew that I knew that despite what the happenings in my life seemed to look like time and time again, that there was a plan and a purpose with my name on it and I was not going to rest until I found it.
You see, I know what its like to cry through the night without a single soul knowing, and to choose to get up just one more day for yet another dragging 24 hours of fight in me to just survive. When it seemed the rest of the world just wanted me to just quit already, choosing to get back up again and again….again, was all I knew how to do. And every single day, the ever elusive and echoing question: Will I ever find my way out of this entrapment of darkness?
Here’s your spoiler alert, sis- HECK, YES! You are not only going to make it, but you are going to SOAR beyond your wildest dreams and your true life will be restored to you!! You are loved, you are worthy, you have what it takes, you are fierce and you are a force to be reckoned with. Please don’t quit. I am living proof that there is plenty of light to go around for all of us at the end of this tunnel. You gotta just trust me on this one. YOU. MATTER.
To all who mourn in Israel, He will give a crown of beauty for ashes,
A joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. - Isaiah 61:3
With everything in me,
I believe that when we are being lifted up along the way, we have a responsibility to then turn around and lift up those still falling behind us. With that said, I will give 5% of the proceeds of every sale to DayBreak YWCA, a program for battered women, of which I am humbled to have been on the receiving end of this very program years ago as a young, single mother. Thank you.
The importance of giving back-
Do not withhold good from those to whom it is due, when it is in your power to do it. -Proverbs 3: 27